You know what would be epic? An ironic/angry cover of "How Lovely to Be a Woman." You know, that song in the commercial. How lovely to be a woman, the wait was well worthwile. How lovely to be wear mascara, and smile a woman's smile. Let's get, like, Ani DiFranco or someone similar to cover it. That would be pretty much the best thing ever. Y/n?



In less epic news, R.I.P. Bea Arthur. You will be missed. D:

Holy shit, I just got a review for one of my oooooooold Ronin Warriors fanfics! Neat.

Well well. Looks like someone finally noticed! I just logged on to see this:

deathbloodfangs (2/24/2009 12:37:18 PM): Hey. So word on the black market is that I'm being shunned for words spoken as an idiot. Sorry you took offense to my gay comment but honestly, I think James is retarded and said what he did to get you. Didn't he say he was grossed out by guy on guy then turns around and says he's pan? Whats up with that? Maybe I'm missing something but I'm just looking out for u.

No honey, you are not, and have not been, looking out for me. You've been trying to run off everyone's boyfriends and been extremely prejudiced towards gay men/perceived gay(ish) men, both for as long as I've known you. It is never okay to threaten to physically injure someone for "acting gay."

James did this amazing thing called realizing he was wrong, which was followed by something called an apology, and- gasp- a change in behavior. You haven't seemed interested in any of these things. That, up there that you wrote? Not an actual apology. It's really just "sorry that I got caught being dickish."

If your idea of "looking out for me" is being bigoted and threatening my friends, then I think I can do without it, thank you.

...So yeah. I think I'm going to send this or something like it back, as soon as I can get yahoo messenger to work right. Feel free to suggest changes/additions. I'd keep typing, but I've gotten to the point where I'm so pissed off that my hands are shaking.

Ugh. Just ugh.

So, Emily and I had planned to hang out today. You know, get together, watch a movie or something, and eat some cake in honor of Singles Awareness Day (she has a boyfriend, but he's working today). Great, right? Well, no, not quite. See, in my excitement, I managed to forget that Emily is notorious for not following through on plans. Basically, if you go out of your way to make arrangements, she won't show up. Which would be less offensive if she would actually tell you she couldn't make it. But no. I had to call her, only to hear "whoops my grandmother wants to do something, sorry." But hey, Emily's family is batshit insane, so you can't really argue with them. So, not the worst thing ever.

But. Then I realized something. A large percentage of my friends do this to me. I can think of a small handful who haven't, and they probably just haven't had a chance to do so yet. I think I must be the backup plan friend or something. I mean, I don't have a problem with people being busy and having other things to do. That's called life. But when it's a pretty constant pattern, and you won't even tell me you can't make it, I can't really help feeling like I'm the only one placing any value on the friendship.

And if anybody actually reads this and is wondering if I'm talking about you, well. Have you repeatedly made plans with me and cancelled without warning or telling me? If you've had to cancel, but you did tell me, I'm not talking about you (I know this is for at least one person on here). If you actually hang out with me when you say you're going to, I'm not talking about you. If maybe you've done this once or twice, I'm not talking about you, but for god/dess/es/whatever's sake tell me when you have to cancel. I don't even care what the reason is, I just need to know if something's come up. I might be kinda sad if you have to cancel, but it's much better than not telling me and thinking I won't notice or whatever. Then if you keep doing that, I'm gonna end up thinking you're ditching me. And hey, if you don't wanna hang out with me? Don't fucking make plans to hang out with me. Just say you can't. I may not catch on that you don't want to hang out with me, but at least you won't be forced to spend time with me, right?

If you are, or think you are, one of the people I'm talking about, and would like to know how to "fix it" or whatever? All you have to do is tell me something's come up. Don't wait for me to come find you, put on your grown-up underwear and let me know. And if you've been doing this to someone else? Same fucking thing. It really isn't that hard to do, and leaving people in the lurch like that is not only extremely rude, but it makes the person you're doing it to feel like you don't actually like them or want to spend time with them.

It's pretty sad that the only person who wants to hang out with me today is my mom. (I love my mom, but I'm just saying.) Well, she and I are gonna get some Chinese food and eat a VDay cake! And I'm gonna play video games.

Happy motherfucking Valentine's Day.

EDIT: Fffffff, bahahahahahahaha. Okay, so apparently all I needed to do was complain about it. Emily just called and said she's coming over in a bit. Working the card section of Walmart on Valentine's Day gave her a headache (gee, how shocking), which she used to get out of the plans with her grandmother. So once she's gotten it to calm down/let the pain meds kick in, she's gonna come over and play video games or whatever. It seems Emily only shows up when you don't expect her, lawls.

Emily, while playing Re:CoM: "Oh Axel, you tease~"

Bahahahaha. Also, I think Christmas or something happened. It was pretty cool. Yeah.

Also, bawwww I miss people bawwww. */no one cares*

EDIT: What the hell, I can't even spell "Christmas" right. Goob job, me.

Queers United's definition of pansexuality. Nice to see it gotten right. *thumbs up* *pansexual seal of approval*

Also, hooray movie plans are go! Also also? Well played Meagan. You had both of us going for a while there. *sighs in lolrelief and hides under desk*

And maybe I'll even get pics of me sorta dressed up on Monday. Stranger things have certainly happened. Like the circumstances that lead to me dressing up on Monday I mean whut don't look at this strikeout.

Chinese girl gets "kiss of deaf" LOLWHUT

In other news, it looks like Lifetime brought back Golden Girls. Hooray!

In other other news, yeah, I've been more or less offline the past week/week and half or so because of finals. I'll probably on more (particularly in the small hours of the night/morning, since hey, winter break) after today. On the other hand, it's finally wintery, which means it is pleasant and enjoyable outside. So who knows? But anyway, yeah. If you actually wanna talk to me about something, leave me a comment on lj/myspace. I will see it, probably fairly soon. Just, yeah.

Also, I just emptied my camera onto the laptop, and now I have no idea what to upload to the internets. I mean, I like one of the cat pics, and I have a bunch of lulzy pics of Stina and Chalarity and such, but I'm supposed to be uploading pics of me or something. Blech. I don't photo well at all. I think I'll just stay Rick Astley on myspace for now. (Also, lol, should probably upload Persacon pics someday. But that day is not today.)

Also also, this song makes me lol. I got it off a Scarecrow fanmix, but it totally has a verse about a guy dressed in green... who is, apparently, a lovin' machine. Scarecrow/Riddler? Yeah, I kind of ship it now. :D

I hate when I know my friends are upset, but I have no idea what to do or say. I'm sorry C&C, I kind of fail. (But hey, at least this semester's almost over, right? :\ )

In other news, I have one final (sociology) tomorrow, one on Tuesday (French), and then I go home! Fuck yeah!

Okay, so Christina and Charity got me what has to be the best birthday present ever. They got me a Riddler clock! XD <3 It's amazing.

Also, lol yay, today's my birthday. *is sick and has to write a paper, lol*

HOLY SHIT, HOW DID I NOT KNOW ABOUT THIS SITE?! Doooooo waaaaaaaaant. *pines for shiny things*

In other news, yay! I got to hang out with Alice yesterday! I saw her apartment and met her roommate (he's hilarious). Then we (Alice and I, that is. Jordan had to go to work) went to Wal-Mart, where I bought some rainbow ribbon, a giant candy bar, and a bracelet-making kit thing (yay beads). Then we went to Starbucks to annoy Jordan. I got some sort of pumpkin spice drink. It was delicious. Then we went back to the apartment and watched some tv, followed by watching 300 and eating pizza. Yaaaaay!

In other other news, I had a Batman dream last night, lol. And no one was surprised

I hate people, school's trying to eat me, and I'm hungry, tired, kinda lonely, and kinda bored. Also, I'm sick of nitpicky and/or pretentious college students. I'm sick of The Inferno and the ignorant class discussions it inspired. I'm sick of feeling like I'm invisible.

On the other hand...

I love my friends, I love the college atmosphere, I love most of my classes, I love college shenanigans. I really like intelligent discussions/debates, and college has those in spades. We're done with The Inferno, and I didn't even have to read all of it! I'm making even more friends this semester. I'm doing some of that college self-discovery, and it's pretty awesome.

Also, 50s Girl? You really do talk too much in class, and are kind of a know-it-all. But you know what? You're actually really nice to talk to one-on-one most of the time. Also, you're kinda cute, lol.

Happy slightly belated National Coming Out Day! In case anybody missed it, I'm pansexual. :D

Btw, UM buddies, just so y'all know, I'm not coming back until tomorrow morning. Uncle Carl's visiting for the weekend, and Mom and I are going to drop him off at the airport at fuck o'clock tomorrow morning, and then head on down to school.

In other news, I saw Emmy on Friday and we did some shopping, mostly of the window variety, lol. I got a couple of things, but I'm not going to say what they are until I've had a chance to show a couple of y'all in person. (I got something very lulzy! :D )

Also, what the fuck is up with lemon pie that's... not lemony? You know, the kind that's really sweet without any tart/sour in it. Doesn't that defeat the purpose of lemon pie? :P

Oh! And when Emmy and I were out and about, we saw Alice! :D :D That's exciting 'cause we haven't seen or heard from her since graduation, basically. (I added her on myspace the day before we saw her, lol. Also, Amelia found me. Myspace, you're not a total waste after all.)

In other other news, I'm still pretty bad at hearts. Just sayin'.

I've been pondering this for a while. So, I think it's safe to say that everyone says and does things they shouldn't. We're all dickish some of the time, but some more often than others. Many of us don't apologize as often as we should. However, there are some things I'm just not going to apologize for or feel guilty about. I will never be sorry for standing up for my friends or my beliefs. Sorry, but if I get into a fight with hypothetical you about either of those things, you're not getting an apology from me. You just aren't.

I know I haven't been very good about calling people out for saying shit to or about my friends in the past, and I am sorry about that. And there are still some friends with shitty situations that I can't help right now, and I feel bad about that, too (even though there's probably nothing I can do. I just hate to see my friends in those situations). But you know what? Sometimes I can say something. Sometimes I even manage to do so. And I'm not sorry about that.

In other news, I <3 my friends for being awesome and supportive and more awesome.

Hooray for supportive friends and family members.

Wow, like one day, and I've already commented in queer_rage. I couldn't help it, it was Golden Girls-related! Also, the people there are nice. :)